I've been feeling somewhat blue and a bit overwhelmed with all the things that have transpired. I've lost six friends and family this year ~ I keep thinking about all of them and the fact that they are gone forever ~ taken with hardly enough time to prepare.
I've put most of my energy into my consignment space, keeping Mom busy, and trying to get caught up with so many things that have piled up ~ literally. My desk has a mountain of paperwork on it and there are things on every surface available in there. Now I'm faced with the Holidays and all that comes with them. Suddenly, I'm tired and I feel like a scrunched up heap in this chair.
I think I've masked my sorrow with daily tasking. I seem to have so much to do and I'm running day and night to get it all done and yet I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything. That "zip" that keeps me going most of the time is not there. I've just been going through the motions.
I'm not sure what made me realize these things. It just dawned on me that I am running in circles and not really doing anything. I need to snap out of it and get back to normalcy. Since I now realize what I've been doing, I think I'll do better.
I've heard so often how hard it is to get through the Holidays after the loss of loved ones. I am looking forward to being with my family. I want to be with them and hold them close.
One thing I am thankful for this year is you, my friends. Getting to know you better over time has been delightful. I wish you all a Blessed and Happy Thanksgiving.